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Confessions of a crazed mother: Bedrest

Unforeseen was the commotion of a weekend she thought would go so smoothly. As she packed up her belongings, memories and cherished photos she held close to her heart the tears built up in her eyes. She worked so hard for everything in that home; as she grabbed children’s toys, articles of clothing and random items that were stored away in closests she looked at them carefully. A box lay infront of her and a trash bag beside she had to decide which memories were of importance to her and her family in the future. The trash bin outside grew like a mountain with her children’s toys that were long forgotten, clothing that hadn’t fit since before children and papers of all the writings she had scribbled down over the years.

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The walls of the home stored stories of times of joy; from the first turn of the key to the very first home to the sadness of losing loved ones and family disagreements. It was becoming a bitter moment. The memories like a tsunami took over, looking in the upstairs closet she remembered the little pitter patter of the girls feet as they ran in the large walk-in closet. How small they were when we moved in; Elleanna was but one and a half and Isabella was only four… The age Elleanna is now as the boxed tower in the living room and their bedroom.

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The next few hours were out of one’s mind. Throwing away as much as possible knowing there were but a short time before the family showed up to help pack the memories in a storage unit.. Stress running high, arguments of help overcoming the joy of what the future would be holding. As family arrived embarrassment that the house was still unready; thinking that it would be an easy task was now a laughable moment to look back on. Though the nerve-racking moments were about to come. As an overwhelming unpleasant feeling took over my body I knew something wasn’t right. After finding the unpleasant red I was rushed to the hospital by my mother and aunt in tears. Feeling the past was reliving itself the negative thoughts were clouding my mind. Hours of testing from sonograms that were unseen by my eyes due to their fear of anything being wrong to Iv’s and nurse visits all I kept asking was to know the baby was there..  I just wanted to know that; if told that the baby was there with a heartbeat I could calm a bit but they didn’t give me that satisfaction. After five hours the news that the baby was currently alright but with complications that took lifting, bending, walking much and stress out of my abilities. Do they not know me? Stress is a major portion of my life!

We headed home with my mind unable to wrap around the fact I couldn’t lift Elleanna or that I would be out of work for some time. A follow up doctors appointment was made to further inform me of my and the baby condition. Two days later I sat in the cold doctors office; my mind wondering around with questions. As the doctor opened the door with paper work in hand he was smiling. How could he be smiling this was not a moment for smiles in my opinion. He said have you been on the bed rest? Not stressing? I laughed “I’m doing it to the best of my abilities but stress under these circumstances is high.”

It was a moment of complete confusion as he said all the “doctor terms” I sat with a blank stare… “Can you repeat that in English now?” With the printed information he circled what the main concerns were. The heart rate at 157 I was just happy to know that the baby was there and that as long as I did everything. I could that it would have a better chance of less complications.

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The days went by, bored out of my mind and unable to pick up Elleanna when she cried for me broke my heart; but I knew I had to do whatever I needed for our baby. As someone usually working five to six days a week, school pick ups, grocery store trips and the busy life of a mother after work came to a halt. Unable to push a vacuum I started to feel trapped. The negativity clouding my mind I felt so alone; though with family help and Geraldo’s I still felt like no one understood my mindset.

How can I turn this bed rest into something positive? As the girls hugged my legs, my stomach and told me how much they loved me I saw the positive side. For many years I have been unable to fully be attentive to them, stressed from the busy life of work and traveling around to get the kids to and from and the items we needed for the house. This was an opportunity to read books, to watch them play in the yard and see how much they really have grown over the years. This was a time to enjoy the less hectic life I have come so accustomed to… But would I be able to?

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Posted in Disney, FAMILY TIME, Live Show

Disney on Ice: Dare to Dream

I am a Feld Entertainment Blogger Ambassador, and in exchange for my time and efforts in attending shows and reporting my opinion within this blog, as well as keeping you advised of the latest discount offers, Feld Entertainment has provided me with complimentary tickets to Feld shows and other exclusive opportunities.

 

“oh that clock! Old killjoy I hear you “come on, get up” you say time to start another day. Even he orders me around. Well there’s one thing. They can’t order me to stop dreaming.” –  Cinderella

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Another year with an amazing performance awaiting us with Dare to Dream Disney on ice. We have the privilege to attend the upcoming September performance at the Amaya Center here in Orlando. Anxiously awaiting to see performances from from some of Disneys dreaming Princesses.

From Cinderella and her dreams of love…

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“The skies awake, so I’m awake, so we have to play!) – Anna (Frozen)

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“Let it go! Let it go! Can’t hold it back anymore!” – Elsa (Frozen)

To Belle from Beauty and the Beast and her dreams beyond her small village.

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“what do you know about dreaming Gaston?” -Belle

But our family’s newest addition to repeating songs and movie Moana.

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“Sometimes our strengths lie beneath the surface. Far beneath.” -Moana

Not only do I have the privledge of attending but also a lucky winner of four tickets. Check out the rafflecopter below for details for your entry into the raffle.

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Posted in date night, FAMILY TIME, Summerfun, travel, Uncategorized

Are you ready for war?:Hard Knocks Pointe Orlando

Our newest adventure brought out the Tomb Raider in me. I was jumping, rolling and hiding under tables; this time I wasn’t hiding from the children but ready to pounce and attack the rival team. I felt like I was special forces on a mission or maybe even a cop. None the less I was into the laser tag and could see myself mission after mission all day!

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We entered Hard Knocks laser tag with smiling faces greeting us with a welcoming atmosphere. As you take a look around the building there were two separate areas to sit with a beverage-snack stand to reenergize us.

Little did I know the televisions I believed were for decoration would come to haunt me with the taunting of my fallen comrade and rival team. When introduced to our mission we were given a locker for our valuables (VERY PLEASED! I even had my own code and yes I almost locked the code in the locker haha.) As well as we signed wavers on the computer before watching televisions located near the lockers. We were given a break down of what to expect and what kind of weapons we would be able to use.

It was time to gear up!

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Though we arrived at opening this gave an advantage. The three of us (myself, Geraldo and our friend Manny) were alone, no rivals currently giving us the time to learn the surroundings. And also chase one another throughout the map… I admit I was out of breath giving me the mindset that I need some more laser tag to get me in shape. A few rough patches throughout our first mission from my failed sliding across the floor to Manny almost getting hit in the head with a “gun”. The many times I hid or turned a corner and scared myself with the monitoring worker right there which triggered my giggling then giving away my position. Fail.

After a short break for food downstairs of Pointe Orlando we were back at Hard Knocks, this time opening the doors to a full house! Excitement ran through me, I was ready to go. Packing the locker full of our items we set out to listen to the rules and be split into teams. This time we were together as a group… Well that would help to a certain extent. Because I knew the three out of seven members on the team which will later get me “killed”. After a few rounds with a large family, that had us cracking up and finally had me feeling as if I wasn’t the only confused solider!

Our last round I may have had a focus.. As I hid behind filing cabinets and under desks, popping up and crouching in the darkness the rival team had no idea what was coming. I was going crazy, firing away at the rival team reloading and attacking! I watched as my team member “Manny” was taken out as well as Geraldo (Rival team). I didn’t know who was left on his side but I had to win! As 7 Vs 7 came down to 4 vs 2…. And then there was one which we may have chased down and cornered. As I exited the barracks leaving behind my vest and weapon Geraldo and Manny began to laugh and act as if they were playing still. I didn’t understand why.. Until after all their laughter was finished I got the story. I was on the televisions as they watched the Laura Croft in me come out! I so wish they had a tape of that (yes I am very proud of my solider like skills haha).

As we watched Hard Knocks fill up all I could imagine was coming with a group of friends. I couldn’t explain a better indoor activity great for rainy or sunny days for pre-teen to adults to enjoy whether as a family, friend or date. Yes I said date there’s more than movies, dinners and coffee! So lets set out to find these new date nights, new activities to laugh and keep moving to.

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