Confessions of a crazed mother: Where has time gone?

The twinkle in your eyes as you smile with mischievous intentions in your near future I wonder where my baby girl has gone. Already four years of motherhood, messy diapers, bath time fights and snuggles in bed I couldn’t imagine a time without her. We’ve been through many things and she’s been my best friend through it all; through the time outs and upsetting moments… Through the laughing hysterically and our “mommy & daughter time” she’s been the one to know my failures and seen my success. Isabella Marie was my first reason at being a better person, being the best mother I know how. Though at times many don’t see eye to eye with how I raise my children; I see the good in my children and who they are yet to become. I see the obstacles they have and will do my best to have them lessened then what I have seen. I will stand by my girls while they reach their first crush, heartbreaks and falls. But in this moment I will take in the four years of motherhood to this perfect angel Isabella.

I remember the moment I found out I was pregnant, so scared of what I would do… How would I take care of you. “Oh god what if I hurt her while I’m holding onto her tiny body?!” was one of my largest fears. As time went on the excitement began to build, setting up the nursery adding special touches of your name above your crib I couldn’t wait for you to make your arrival.

I remember putting you in the car seat to carry you out of Winnie Palmer as everyone smiled at the bright eyed, bushy hair princess as we strolled by it was official after about 40 hours of labor, bouncing on a medicine ball… Walking non stop and being induced I was finally taking my Princess home. The best was yet to come… And the fears!

For a week long I was so worried about sleeping alone in my bedroom with you in the cradle I once laid in as an infant… We (Nana and I) spent one week hyped on caffeine and laying on the sofa and love seat, falling asleep with you on our chests or watching you in the cradle. Learning how to make a bottle, burp and keep your little butt awake for feedings. Tia Nay-Nay noticed that first hand, she saw my fear and my break down of crying wondering why my baby girl wouldn’t wake for eight hours to eat no matter how hard I tried. Bathing you, loud noises and making you “Fist pump” to music… You were as stubborn as your mother and gave me my first heart attack as a mother.

I spoiled you… I still do just we share a bit more now with sissy (Elleanna). We took trips mommy and Isabella to Washington Dc to see Grandpa and MiMi.. We took trips to New York to see Aunt Dee and Uncle Dave… We visited Disney constantly; though it helped when mommy was friends with Nemo.

I cannot express how much you have taken my breath away… From your first word, steps, rolling over to your first birthday…

You still seem to amaze me now, with the new words… New activities and how you crack me up. You are one of the greatest gifts that I’ve been given. An opportunity to better myself, my life and the opportunity to be your mother and best friend.

A year has passed again, with many new things… Pre-K3 and soccer… Becoming more of a big sister. Elleanna already looks up to you, I see the love between you two and hope that it never fades. She is in our best friend group and we’ll teach her all our secrets..

Always remember you are my Princess, my baby girl no matter the age and that I am always proud of you… But where has the time gone!?

 

How do you cherish the time as your little ones get older?

Do you make photo books, non-stop photos and matching outfits (shoes)?